It’s been some pretty boring days. Today, I FINALLY was able to put my hair in this basketweave…
This means one thing and one thing only: MY HAIR IS GROWING!
It’s the little things…
So, how about I don’t know what day I’m on. This weekend has been hectic but, I’m grateful for the busyness.
Thursday, I had a photoshoot. I was inspired by roses (June’s flower) and Frida Kahlo. Hence, this awesomeness!
I almost cried when I saw the pictures. I’m so thankful for the opportunity to see my vision come to fruition. (P.S. Video tutorial coming Thursday!)
Friday, I worked to get ready for a show on Saturday. I was thankful for my creativity and work ethic.
Saturday was the show. I am thankful that I met some amazing people and it’s a natural high when people praise your work.
Yesterday, I looked in my closet and a part of me that I thought was gone, reared her head. Next thing you know, this outfit made itself known.
Then, I worked out with some buddies.
AND I enjoyed this on the way home:
Today, I’m back in the shop again. I have a headache now but, I’m grateful that I have work to be done. Thank God!
Happy Memorial Day and stuff!!! (Early)…Here’s the look that I came up with that was inspired by the colors and festivities of Memorial Day. Below you will find the supplies I used and the video. Have fun!!!
I really enjoyed creating this look. It was impromptu and on the fly but, I explain all of that in the video. Have fun guys!
Until next time…
So, this post was supposed to go up yesterday but, better late than never, right?
Today, I’m grateful for growth. It’s not always obvious when we are growing. Sometimes, it seems as if we keep doing the same things, committing the same mistakes. It’s only when we look back at who we were and compare it to who we are now, that growth can really be seen.
A couple of weeks ago, I wrote a post about new beginnings where I posted a photo of my lillies breaking through the ground. Today, I am able to see how fast and much they have grown because I was there in the beginning. I have something to compare it to. This, I believe, helps me to be more appreciative of their growth.
When you are having a hard time seeing your own growth, take a moment and look back. It helps…a lot. 🙂
Until next time,
I spend a majority of the daytime hours cleaning up my art room. It was a disaster and just going in it overwhelmed me. I intended on working in fifteen minute increments because of this issue. What ended up happening was the difference I began to see, motivated me to keep going. It still looks messy in the picture but, it’s really not. I took this pic after I cleaned and worked for a bit. Today, I’m thankful for a clean working space.
Today was a bit of a struggle. I decided to find something to do that made me happy. I came across this video of Claudia Rossi showing a planner/smash book/art journal that she customized for herself. I went out RIGHT THEN and got some starter materials! Today, I’m thankful that I can create my own paradigm shift.
Today, I woke up at three in the morning with a lot on my mind. I just went to my studio and started making some positive affirmation tags (not pictured) and I finished my art assignment for the week (Life Book 2014) which featured four of my favorite things: coffee, chocolate, inspirational quotes, and white doodles. I’m thankful for this outlet.
So, most of us deal with the reality of this fear. It’s debilitating, crippling, and keeps you from even trying to do new things. It’s the fear of failure and it’s one of my biggest fears. The crazy thing is this: No matter how hard we try, there will be times when we will fail. No matter how gifted, intelligent, witty, cute, or nice we are, there will be a time when you will hit the ground…hard.
I’ve had a bad habit of either not trying to do something because I was scared I would fail or I’d try and fail and then keep going as if nothing has happened. Neither of those is a healthy solution.
Sometimes our life will put us in a predicament where we have to really confront and deal with our issues. Apparently, my life (and God) feels that my time is now…No, it doesn’t feel good but, it will be worth it.
The first step to dealing with this fear (or any for that matter) is to identify it. You have to know what it is that you’re dealing with. When I think of “failure”, I don’t think of some broad idea. I think of specific times where I have failed. Those are what I need to identify. So, I prayed and asked God to bring back to my remembrance any failure that I need to address. Sure enough, they came flowing out and I had a list 20-something strong.
Let me give you a heads up. This will not be an overnight process. I’m going through it as I type. If you don’t see another “My FEARLESS Journey” post for a while, it’s because I’m still dealing with this situation. This doesn’t mean that I won’t allow myself to live in the meantime. It just means that I will be attentive to my needs in this area until it’s done.
At this point, it is important that you pay attention to how you feel. Are you upset or angry? Are you sad or overwhelmed? You need to allow yourself to feel your feelings and deal with why you are feeling that way. What is the underlying reason for your feelings? For me, I felt nothing. Actually, what I felt was an immediacy to handle this. I didn’t feel sad or guilty or condemned because of my list. It didn’t bring me shame to see my failures in writing. What it did was make me see, firsthand, what I was dealing with. It was almost a relief because getting them out meant that I didn’t have to carry them anymore. It was a jumping off point. A place where I can start dealing with this leg of my journey.
Oddly enough, just documenting this is a step out of my comfort zone. I’m sharing some of my skeletons and what will you think about that? How will that make you feel about the person that I am? I’ve gotten to the point where I can’t care about that. I have to focus more on the fact that there is someone out there that is going through the same things that I am going through and I need to share so they can have hope…so they can know that they are not alone.
The second step is to pray about your list. Bring this all to God. At the end of the day, He will be who helps you through all of this. He will be who guides you along the way. Ask Him how or where you should begin. We are all different so how you proceed might be different that how I proceed. It is important that you take your time and really be aware of things. I say that because what you don’t want is to be going through this again.
For me, the next step is to identify why those failure have occurred. For instance, I’ve gone through a divorce. My initial reaction to that divorce was, “It’s all his fault. Had he ______ or ______, I wouldn’t have _____.” That response solves nothing…and I really mean NOTHING! You learn nothing. Nothing changes and quite honestly, you would’ve gone through all of it for nothing.
At this point in my life, my response has to be, “Why did that happen?”, “What did I do to contribute to the problem?”, “Why did I do that?”, “What could have been done differently?”… As you can see, this might be a long process. I admonish you to go through it because it will help you to not continue making the same mistakes.
Dealing with past failures will allow me to know that these “failures” are really lessons that I learn. It changes my perspective. Knowing that I am always learning and not necessarily failing, will give me a door to move forward with things that may seem intimidating. This doesn’t mean that I won’t be scared. What it means is that I can do it…even if I’m scared.
There are no perfect people and failing is inevitable. It is important to differentiate between failing and being a failure. As long as I don’t quit, I’ll never be a failure. Yay!
Keep this in mind: Your failures do not define you.
Until next time…