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Death

It’s been a while since I’ve written… anything. Let me just be real. It’s been a while since I’ve done much of anything. I find victory in the fact that I’m still here, despite what I’ve been through.

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The past two years have been the hardest in my life. I went through a divorce that I wasn’t expecting and last night, I lost my grandmother. Death can come in many forms and quite honestly, I’m not wanting to see any more.

As a child, I spent so much of my time wishing I was grown so I wouldn’t have to do chores, stay at home, or follow 80 million rules. As an adult, all I want is the freedom of a child. I want to run around in the grass barefoot, to climb trees, and sit underneath the sun and watch the clouds all day. I want the opportunity to not be stressed or worry about the weight of the world on my shoulders… to not worry about failure, loss… to not worry about death, in whatever form it comes in.

As I lay here, waiting on the sun to rise, I think about my grandmother. How hard she worked in a yarn mill for decades. I think about her sense of humor, her quick wit, her no nonsense attitude. I think about her sweet potato pie that I used to love, her chicken dressing that I never got the recipe to, and how spending the night at her house meant fried chicken and rice for breakfast.

I think about my grandfather who is suffering with Alzheimer’s disease. I think about everything he and my grandmother went through together and in the end, nothing was left but their love for each other. I  think about how this disease could never be considered a gift except in that moment. 

Amist all these thoughts and feelings, I consider myself blessed. My grandmother helped raise me. It’s because of her that I am able to keep going in life. My strength, my determination, my witty sense of humor, it all is from her.

The last conversation I had with her was of her encouraging me to move on with my life after my divorce.  I saw how angry she was at what I was going through and I was glad because again, my grandma had my back and even now, I know that she always will.

Rest in peace, Grandma. I will always love you.

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365 Grateful: Day 16

Today, I’m grateful for life. My friend and I were sitting on the side of a very busy highway today near an exit. I was out of gas, in case you were wondering.
In my rear view, I saw a truck veer out of his lane and head straight toward us. At the last second, he jerked the vehicle back into his lane.

Thank God for life.

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Until next time,
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365 Grateful: Day 15

**Yesterday**

Today, I woke up at three in the morning with a lot on my mind. I just went to my studio and started making some positive affirmation tags (not pictured) and I finished my art assignment for the week (Life Book 2014) which featured four of my favorite things: coffee, chocolate, inspirational quotes, and white doodles. I’m thankful for this outlet.

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Getting My Life

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So, I know it’s been a while. I don’t know why I feel that I have to wait for some big event to occur before I blog. Well, a big event didn’t occur BUT…I have some tips for you guys!

For the past couple of months, I have been feeling really lethargic, unmotivated, and unproductive. I would end up in my bed around seven and would spend the rest of my evening watching YouTube videos of other people doing what I wish I had the energy or inspiration to do. I brushed off how I felt as just one of my “episodes”.

Let’s pause here…I don’t mean “episode” as if I’m out of my mind or anything. What it means is that I often have times when I’m feeling down and tired but, never had it lasted this long.

Ok…back to the story. I kept feeling the urge to make some changes in my diet. So, this past Sunday evening, I stopped eating meat…again. The following Tuesday, I started oil pulling. By Tuesday afternoon, I noticed that I wasn’t as lethargic as I had previously been. I also started drinking a tea who’s ingredients are helpful in detoxing and purifying my body.

Wanna know what all this means? Well, I’m going to tell you over the next couple of days. If you are reading this blog at a later date, the related blogs are already linked above.

Stay tuned guys!  I am going to take you on this journey with me. Are you ready?

What things do you do to stay healthy?

Until next time…