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365 Grateful: 78 & 79

So, for the past couple of days, I’ve continued to push myself outside of my comfort zone. They seem like baby steps but, for me, they are huge because there was a time when fear would have stopped me from moving forward.

Thursday, I posted a video with a makeup look that I never would have considered doing a year ago. This is what happens when you stop caring about failing.

Yesterday, I received a message that literally moved me to tears and this was on top of an already rough week. I pushed passed my feelings (something I’m learning to do) and went out with my friend, Natasha.

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I stole this pic from her Facebook page.

Isn’t our makeup flawless? #shamelessplug

The silver lining…

  Today is day 68 of my “365 Grateful” challenge and although I will probably post later on what I’m grateful for today, I felt a need to explain why I decided to participate. 

I tried this challenge before, you know. I tried to “be” grateful even though my world, as I knew it, began to fall apart. I could blame it on the fact that I picked the word “fearless” for the year or the fact that I needed healing (who doesn’t?). Instead of placing blame, I decided to take ownership. 

Do you know how empowering it is to actually take ownership? There’s power in focusing on what you CAN do and not what you can’t. So, in the midst of the fall out, I made a decision. I was never going to be this unhealthy again.

Usually when we think of unhealthiness, we think of junk food, a lack of exercise, and maybe a lot of television. But, I’m not speaking of unhealthy in the physical sense. Recognizing that you are physically unhealthy is a lot easier that recognizing if you are unhealthy emotionally.

Not dealing with issues, acting like everything is okay, and reasoning that always makes it someone else’s fault, will lead you to being emotionally unhealthy. It’s a sneaky culprit because we are taught by our environment that confrontations have to be avoided and crying is weak. Even small children learn to place blame of someone else to avoid getting into trouble. 

So how do we become healthy? Make a decision. Make a decision to do the work. Make a decision to work on yourself. For me, it’s a lot of prayer, reading, self talk, counseling…and taking ownership. For you, it may be something completely different. 

What does this have to do with being grateful? Well, part of my self care is to focus on what was good In my day, even if I have a hard time finding it. I don’t always hit the mark but, I always try. So, if you see me say, “Today wasn’t such a good day…” or “Yeah, today kinda sucked…” know that I’m being honest but, the fact that I posted means that I am trying. I’m in the process of grieving and it can be a lot sometimes. 

I wrote this post to encourage you. Work at seeing the silver lining. Work at being grateful for everything. Even the bad that occurs in your life is there to serve you. What is it that you can learn from it? 

Keep your chins up, your chests out, and conquer the friggin day!

Until next time…

Shine!

365 Grateful: Day 40 & 41

Yesterday (no picture), something switched within me. I don’t know if I would call it a paradigm shift but, something changed. I’m thankful for the people that supported me yesterday for helping to facilitate that change. 

Today, I’m grateful for process and progress. Everything has a time and a season. I’ve got unanswered prayers on the table and it’s great to know that if they have not been answered yet, it’s simply just not time.
I keep coming outside, looking for these lillies to bloom and, although they haven’t yet, I still see progress. They make me smile.

   
 

365 Grateful: Day 14 (late)

So, this post was supposed to go up yesterday but, better late than never, right?

Today, I’m grateful for growth. It’s not always obvious when we are growing. Sometimes, it seems as if we keep doing the same things, committing the same mistakes. It’s only when we look back at who we were and compare it to who we are now, that growth can really be seen.

A couple of weeks ago, I wrote a post about new beginnings where I posted a photo of my lillies breaking through the ground. Today, I am able to see how fast and much they have grown because I was there in the beginning. I have something to compare it to. This, I believe, helps me to be more appreciative of their growth. 

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When you are having a hard time seeing your own growth, take a moment and look back. It helps…a lot. 🙂

Until next time,
Stay

365 Grateful: Day 6 & 7

So, yesterday was a BEAST and I didn’t have time to post. Plus, it was hard to think of what part of my day I was grateful for since I was dealing with some emotional stuff.

I finally resolved to being grateful for me. I am finally appreciating who I am and who God is creating me to be.

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Today, I’m grateful for a beautiful, sunny day. There’s something about the country side on a brisk, sunny, spring day. My focus today is to stay in the moment. This one was not a bad one to be in.

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Until next time,
Stay